Are You Saying I Need Church?

So I was passing by a church the other day with my friend and he tells me that I need church. I need church??? No, no, no. I don't need church. I was baptized catholic when I was 14 under the assumption that it was good. FYI: my grandmother made me do it. She called my mom one day and told her I was getting baptized the following day. As I grew older I stopped going to church. I'm not a religious person. Spiritual, yes. I do believe that there is a higher power, but which one im not so sure. Anywho, I went on into me not believing in the church's ways. He asked me what I meant. Well, birth control for one. If I get pregnant the church isn't the one whose going to help me take care of my child. They aren't the ones who are going to be give me free childcare. Everything you do according to the catholic church is a sin. So right off the bat you have to feel guilty about everything. I'm not one to feel guilty if I don't feel I need to be. Then the whole confession thing. Who is this priest that he can absolve my sins with a couple of hail mary's and heavenly fathers? If i've committed a sin then there are only a couple of people I have to confess to. That higher being I was talking about,and the person who I committed the sin against. The person whom I committed the sin against can absolve the sin i've committed toward him. If I steal his watch, I confess to him that i've stolen his watch. He asks why I did it, I tell him and then it's up to him to decide if he wants to forgive me or not. Not some damn priest who has nothing to do with the situation. Then the fact that most of these churches are in urban areas that aren't doing so well, economically and socially. What is the church's main focus? It's parishoners. Well if it's parish isn't doing so well, then why the hell are they so damn ornately decorated with gold this and bejeweled that? Huh? So why am I tithing you 10% of my income or what I can barely spare, if you're not going to be able to help me? Bunch of hypocrites I say. Then he tells me, "well, Jesus loves you." Like I have to go to some damn church and listen to this slapdick talk for an hour to know that Jesus loves me. Please. All he's waiting for is for the lot of us to leave so he can "school" his altar boys. I need church.........